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Drop into the water

10 May

The waves in my body greet the water in the ocean.

I free myself from the gravity of emotions, and tear finds a way to merge into the oceanic water. It is rather bitter than salty and aged than brand new.

How comforting it is that i don’t need to use a foreign language and to worry about being incorrect. It is the place that i can live with my organs.

Whenever i land on the land, everyone walks with two legs while i use my reptile brain to survive. Everyone walks and talks too fast as if they try hard to be against the gravity. I see and feel their struggles. Why can’t they just listen to the voice of air, wind, and rain..?

By the child in the water

creation, improvisation, life

15 May

Nature is a form of creation.

Life is a form of improvisation.

We live within the creative nature and improvised life.

Therefore, we all are artists who contribute to the creation and improvisation.




11 Feb

I am on voyage. I do not know where to begin and where to end.

I was born and am from and live somewhere in the universe.

There are fragile pieces that want to connect eagerly.

Little by little, and day by day

they are getting closer and clear to become something.

From time to time, I see my reflection in the ocean. It ripples out and disappears.

I am water and meet waves constantly.

When the wave disappears I am saddened.

But after a while, I see and hear the resonance of it.

It tells me to accept the pieces that I want to deny.

I accept them slowly and gently…

Then I am becoming a person.

Day by day, little by little, I grow.

3 Feb

Day by day, little by little, I grow. I should not forget that I am forming what I am becoming at all times.


Tao Te Ching

9 Dec

Knowledge and humility

Knowing others is wisdom;
Knowing the self is enlightenment.
Mastering others requires force;
Mastering the self requires strength;
He who knows he has enough is rich.
Perseverance is a sign of will power.
He who stays where he is endures.
To die but not to perish is to be eternally present.

(chap. 33, tr. Feng and English)


We put thirty spokes together and call it a wheel;
But it is on the space where there is nothing that the usefulness of the wheel depends.
We turn clay to make a vessel;
But it is on the space where there is nothing that the usefulness of the vessel depends.
We pierce doors and windows to make a house;
And it is on these spaces where there is nothing that the usefulness of the house depends.
Therefore just as we take advantage of what is, we should recognize the usefulness of what is not.

(chap. 11, tr. Waley)

She and Nature.

3 Dec

얼굴이 없는 여자같다.
도덕과 정직이 없는 여자였다.
그녀가 움직이면 나도 따라 움직인다.
얼굴에는 표정이 없지만 그 없는 표정에 내 모습이 담긴다.

가끔 그 여자를 보고 있을 때면 살아 없어진 사람같다.
그녀와 말을 하고 있자면 그 여자, 여기 있는게 맞나 싶다.
그 여자의 얼굴은 아름답지는 않지만 뭔가 호수같은게 있다.
마음이 넓거나 학식이 많은 사람은 아닌데 보고있으면 나를 비춰주는 뭔가가 있다.

나는 나인가?w
나는 그녀였던가?
나는 그녀인가?
내가 그녀일수는 있는걸까?
그녀는 누구일까?
살아 없어진 그년은 누구지?

흔적없이 사라진다.
그리고 소리없이 나타나 내 앞에 있다.
가끔은 섬뜩하다. 내가 함께하는지 분리되어 있는지 그 구분이 명확하지 않기 때문이다.
수시로 나는 사라졌다 나타났다를 반복하는 그녀를 따라 사라졌다 나타난다.

가끔은 기억이 사라지기도 하는데 춤을 추다보면 그녀가 노래를 부른다.
나는 그 노래를 따라 춤을 춘다. 그러면 기억이 살아난다.
가끔은 생각이 없는데 어느 순간 나타가 나를 움직인다.
나는 바람을 따라 구름을 따라 움직이다 그녀를 다시 만나고 흐느끼기를 반복한다.

나는 누구인가?
나는 누구이기는 한걸까?
내가 누구라는 건 무슨 의미일까?
나는 무슨 의미일까?

바람이 인다.
내게는 사람의 소리보다 자연의 소리가 더 크게 감각된다.
나는 바람을 따라 구름을 따라 또 그녀를 찾아간다.
그리고 나를 찾는다.

A child dances with a material, not a person.

2 Dec

I don’t dance with a person which contains personality and gender. I dance with a material which contains memory, experience, spirit, impermanence, consciousness, personal/ collective/ suppressed unconscious, intention and corresponds to another constantly.

Dancing, singing, writing, and drawing are only the way I soothe myself in a state of chaos. This world does not make any sense for a child who only learns one plus one is two. This world does not teach the child that three materials (one , one, two) are used for the play, calculation, and that two of ‘one’ makes two as a third product, and that I am because we are, I am here and you are here then we are here. Then the child dance, cry, sing, write, and connect to the world invisibly and powerfully.


29 Nov


Red                 Blue

Fire                 Water

Sun                 Moon

Day                 Night

Sky                  Earth

Yang               Yin

Body                 Mind

Seen                  Unseen

Materiality     Abstraction/Spirit

Knowledge     Intuition/Inner wisdom

Wave                Water

Form                Emptiness

Phenomena   Noumena

Elements        Out of elements